One thing you might learn later in life is that failing isn’t such a bad thing. The most resilient aspect of human beings is recovering from all sorts of undesirable situations or outcomes.
You’ll never be the best but at least you can always be a good ass kisser. I never had a calling in life that could override my pickiness or laziness. It’s sort of a pendulum that swings back and forth. Alternating between affiliation and alienation.
Through all those years in school I’ve met plenty of people but it’s only a temporary situation. Partying was never really my forte but I suppose I’m a bit of a gimp to start off with. At least I realize it. Living in denial is a bit worse. I’m too clever for my own good and too impatient to care.
I still strive to be a little different even if it’s all in vain.
You can’t change anyone and you probably won’t find the perfect friends either. So all you can do is be yourself and believe even when everyone else doubts you. That’s all you can do. You can’t change anyone but you can live your life as best as you can and just because you can’t help every single person, at least you can be honest with yourself.
We all have control over our own fate. In The end it isn’t about money or all the usual stuff. survival. I suppose it’s just trying to find meaning even if everybody is bored out of their mind with all that this time we have, to survive.
A synapse of a thought, truly.
Happy New Year. *yawn*
