Okay
I awake to another day but still I try to squeeze a few more winks of shuteye. stay still. Stay dark. Stay peaceful.. No action, no pain nothing but the silence of nature calling. But I ignore it until I grudgingly get up and then the light goes on.
Clean the face, wash the teeth, and try not to think.
Tidy it all up. Organize it all. Listen to the little somethings of never more.
Dream of better. Not here. Not this in all its ugliness. Disgust surrounds me builds up inside of me. I have no where left to go. Nobody left with absolute sanctuary.
Markers for the next moment when I’m out of this dreary place. No regard left for those who treat with hostility. Embrace the enmity inside me.
No pity left and no forgiveness to give. No mercy. No compassion. Only self-responsibility.
We only choose to see what we wish to see. But we make our worlds what we will. We’re all the same. Vulnerable.
This is all, this is it the simple bare basics.
And I say…..
Okay!
