January 2011
24 posts
Monotonous
We design the game in our minds until there is no more time. Whatever happens has happened before and will happen again. All through the years through all the breaths of air we take. It’s prime.
I don’t know what’s left out there that I haven’t already visualized in here. What do I care? I used to think it was all so rare.
I don’t have the courage to die but...
Keeping An Oath
For the next 16 weeks I will be the best student I have ever been in my 23 years of eye blinking and lazy dreaming. I will complete all my assignments ahead of schedule and be on top of all my responsibilities with greater priority. I will be more patient, less worried, and more grateful for all the chances I get.
I will be much cleaner and organized in all aspects of my life. I will be what I...
Full of Bulgogi
I know I like coming home with a heavy belly. It makes me feel like I’m not all skin and bone after all. I have a strange food high too.
I’ve started noticing that Alcohol doesn’t make me feel the same way anymore. I think I’ve started to develop an aversion or allergic reaction to it. Must just be the social context. It’s liquid courage but when I stay home...
Wherever You Go....
There you are.
I seem to have classes in all sorts of random places. College Square, the Engineering Building, Adam’s Humanities, Arts and Letters, and Library Administration by the 24 study lab.
I know the only reason for this is because Storm Hall is being renovated. I guess if it’s out of sight, it can easily be forgotten. I did notice the new carpeting and wall panels around the...
Dillinosaur
I just got back from my first class of the spring semester and now I am feeling rather peculiar. Maybe I’m just losing my wits. That’s probably all there is to it.
I’m a social turtle and I’ve been hibernating in my shell for sometime but leaving my comatose isolation, I find State to be another place from how it used to be. It’s like going back to your hometown and...
Ennui
Wake up to the sound of cars whizzing by on the 8 freeway. Get off the suede couch with a sore back and a dry throat. Nose all stuffed and blocked up.
“Shit, I’m still alive?” (The daily mantra from within)
No job and school starts tomorrow. Birthday is next week and I feel like there’s nothing to look forward to. Got to apply to graduate but not sure if I want to walk....
Insignificant
Evaporate. Disintegrate. Disappear.
Listen
“By his very success in inventing labor-saving devices modern man has...”
– Lewis Mumford
“Eventually I discovered for myself the utterly simple prescription for...”
– Ralph Steiner
Keeping Trim
Nose hairs grow fast. It’s funny how I wanted to foster something like a mustache but now it’s just weird little whiskers that I get. I guess growing up isn’t what I thought it would be.
Got to keep the lawn nice and trim though. Constant repairs and mop ups on the different aisles. It never looks that nice just because, but through hard work and maintenance.
Having good...